Tuesday, March 13, 2007
But somehow you tend to realise and regret after it's been done. There are many things that once it's done, it can never recover.
Things happened and he made the so-called right but also wrong move. Though he got me to spill everything out but having to recall that messages sent to me makes me upset and all that we have been through after coming to a year.
I made my stand clear, stern and firm and so did Agnes. You want me to say, I tell you all... All my unhappiness and how I feel.
Received C's sms at 1:45 am. I was totally pissed. It's not her stand to make the explaination on your behalf as it has nothing to do with her and especially when she does not really know what is the situation is like. It's just creating more trouble. She is coming to a BIG 3 but dun even act like one and probably with all her imaginary friends.
*Well, I'm giving her the benefit of doubt*
But it's crap.
Those 3 words will still be revolving around my head until he really proves himself till then. I never liked those words as the feeling is exactly what happened 1.5 years back when that fellar said to end it and how I broke down and cried outside Holland V 7-eleven. And how even the wala wala staff had been kind to even console me.
The whole situation yesterday was exactly the same. But I stand firm on my side and puke out whatever things I can say till he's speechless. And to hear from him that whatever I said were not wrong. OF COS... I'm never wrong. It's the fact. Since you are slow in noticing actions, then I will no choice but to speak them out to you from now on. And you do not even know your own friend well when you claim that you know her for ages. She just sounds like a total fake person. Sorry to say that but it's the fact. From the clubbing to the mahjong to the invitations....
And as for the EX-GF... Though you may say that she is a just a friend but I am not going to care but still be unhappy if she keeps calling. Though I do not know her personally, she does not please me in terms of impression. She leads a life with no self-decisions. From the msgs to calls... it's irritating.
In General to all the peeps out there...
It's your choice on whether you want to choose someone who treats you like DIRT or someone who treasures you. You make your choice.
I have been kind and tolerant. I do whatever things I can to help. It's all up to you to prove yourself to me this time.
I told you all the hard effort I have put in to change from a 'LIKE' to a 'LOVE' and how heart-shattering it can get. And how insecure I can get and how I felt so unprotected and where were you when I was sick. It's time you make your stand clearly to me.
But whatever I said yesterday will you ever make your side of effort or not, we shall see. Though I may be soft-hearted somehow in the end but I feel that it's time I show some attitude at times.
Somehow the term,"To be loved is better than to love"
Like it or not.... PROVE yourself.
I specify on my dislikes again:-
1. Fake people
2. Trying to show off and talk big
3. Sharing of my properties
4. Insincere people
5. Retards
6. People who do not get their facts right first b4 confronting others
Like I always say...
Don't step on me... I will bite and I will bite you hard!!!
Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 3/13/2007 09:23:00 AM
