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Wednesday, August 31, 2005

Till now, come to think about it, I still dun think that my life has improved any since primary school days. I lived in a F***** up lifestyle of mine. A world full of violence and vuglarities drumming into my ear and bare skin.

If I have the capabilities as much as I wish that I have it now, I would definitely want to shift out and lead an independent life on my own.

No matter wat, I am still schooling.. Is it so wrong of me even if I ask for rightful amount of allowance even if I am working at the same time. I am already trying very hard not to ask a single cent from my parents. But all I get from my mum saying that I am too much and that I am snob. WTF....

I hate all this violence and vuglarities.... I hate my life... with all the slapping and punching I get all the time... all the brutal words that simple hurts me so much...

Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 8/31/2005 01:48:00 AM

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

I think I will not regret making the final decision short and snap. But the fact that I am been forced into making that decision.

I know I am mean and selfish...
My mum sorts of rejects with my previous life.... but now, I think she will not have any rejections for now.

Things are getting better for me. Studies is quite smooth for me... passed all my common tests... my life is starting to get better. But that's provided if my mum dun get crazy all of a sudden.

Now, I am seriously thinking how I should celebrate my 21st birthday. Its like a one thing. My mum says she is gonna sponsor me $200... but how true is that I would not know till the time comes. LOL....

I think there would be some plans going on for birthday celebrations. But now I wish I am able to spend my special day with my baby also.

8 of Sept is the day I am gonna really miss a special person now I have in my life.

Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 8/24/2005 12:11:00 AM

Sunday, August 21, 2005

I have finally made a super great decision which can I can never turn back anymore.
Once ended it would never be mended back again. Probably I feel that it would be good for me in terms of future if everything goes on smoothly for me.

Probably, my path of route is actually meant to be in this way.

I hope everything would be fine for me.

Having a make such decision also cost alot to me. I have decided that it would mark the end of the friendship with a group of people. But, so be it.

Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 8/21/2005 03:20:00 PM

Sunday, August 14, 2005

Damn!!!!

Just only 2 days.... and quite a lot of things happened to be... I do not know if it would be a good thing or a bad thing...

Maybe if I would have to be selfish... It would be a good thing to me. But, it would cause misery to others around me as well.

I am not going to be specific in my this entry for its quite personal. But Darling Sulie... I might need to chat with you about my situation now sometime later in person... I think this time, I would really need your advise. It gonna be a great final decision which I would need to have.

Hai...... Good things always dun happen at the right time for me.

Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 8/14/2005 01:31:00 PM

Thursday, August 11, 2005

Again and again and again.... I seriously need to start studying my ECD... If I dun, I will definitely fail the paper...

It would be as lucky as my EC paper. I am quite amazed with the results that I have...
Firstly, I really totally did not study my EC notes at all.. partly because I do not understand what the notes is all about...
But amazingly, I could get a 61 out of 100... WITHOUT STUDYING AT ALL... Woo.... lol...

Ok... I should not talk and blog too much already... I should seriously start washing up and start studying my 8 chapters of ECD notes...

Sigh!!! Boring!!!

Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 8/11/2005 06:59:00 PM

Monday, August 08, 2005

I just work too much....

Late nights....

It's no wonder I am down. Feverish, Cough, Flu... all the usual illnesses I always tend to have within months.

I simply don't know why... but I feel that Im weak. I get sick easily.

I suddenly feel like taking a break of working. I am very tired.... Sick and tired of working.
Everytime doing the same old thing, saying the same old things to customers till my mouth is dry. Throat is pain. Ulcers in my mouth. I feel the heatiness in me.

I need a break... Im tired. Its been a long time since I last enjoyed a day outside with my pals.

TIRED!!!!

Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 8/08/2005 10:19:00 PM

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

WooHoo!!!

Finally receive the pics sent by Theo.... Thank you so much...
I so love the pics... nicely captured by our friend.
Great pics I would say!
Click on the pics to view a bigger pic ya!

Cheers

Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 8/03/2005 10:28:00 PM