Wednesday, May 31, 2006
Okok... not only because I need one but its ADIDAS... ok LAME...
But I do need it alright....
Just 2 more lessons of tuition..... 6th Jun (the last lesson) and Im free....
Woohoo... my MONDAYS and WEDNESDAYS would be totally free....
And definitely m I making a point to go the gym to tone up and to train my stamina. I need my stamina for my JIVE... or else by the end of a 3 - 5 mins dance of JIVE, I will be huffing and puffing like I m out of breath. Looking like as though Im about to die...
Alright.... gym... here I come...
Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 5/31/2006 09:03:00 AM
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
More Cramps.....
Definitely more Cramps.....
So Carin Pang is not in the mood for jokes... so whoever its is... dun try pushing your luck too far...
Happy or not this is my blog still like I always said so.
I can be really nice... but when I start to get pissed off you better watch yr back and dun even try to attempt to do anything.
Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 5/30/2006 05:32:00 PM
And guess as much.... I have predicted what was actually happening or else he would not actually start chatting up with me... He actually broke with him gf whom he actually went with after breaking up with me straight. Well, he is just one spoilt brat I know and Im glad Im not mixing around with him. He's just someone who throws his temper, thinking that he is a prince and everyone has to serve him. His parents spent so much on him but he was never grateful but throwing vuglarites back to them and having to comment bout throwing money back into their faces next time... like WTH....
It's funny how he complained about how his ex-gf having to club alot. Now he knows how its feels like having to be betrayed. And considering that he hates ZOUK now when he used to love it so much... It's seriously really a joke of the day.
My words put across were all filled with sacarisms but I don't care. Well, I don't hate him but Im thankful that what he did had actually made me learn and allows me to open my eyes wide enough to know who Im mixing around with.
Not that I don't want to be opened and to still be friends, but sometimes it can churn up some sensitive issues. I have a friend (A GUY TO BE PRECISE) telling me last night how sour he felt and filled with jealousy when the gal he was waiting for was talking to other guys and thinking of her ex-bf... So this shows that not only gals but guys too do feel jealous... but it's a matter of putting yourself into the other parties shoes and have a feel of how it would be like and to understand the situation and keep reminding yourself that they are just friends... Tiring actually... (fyi, its not quoted by me)
So to think of it, it would be a more sensitive issue to a gal... hmmm... This explains why I rather not be in contact with my ex-bfs... Oh well...
He quoted," Gals are meant to be petty, and Guys are meant to be there to woo and make gals happy..." hmmmmm.... *rubbing chin* Not all gals are petty... lol... I wonder what made him said that and I wonder what I actually said... haha...
OH WELL
I am happy with the job Im having now but I believe it will be even better soon. Im happy with who Im with now and whatever Im doing.
Im waiting for the response from SIM RMIT. But I would not say that Im totally all excited about it... it's just the paper qualification which I need to get in the end. But its a long time since I last picked up my notes and textbooks. I wonder how's the feeling like.
I awaiting for a lot of good things..... TIME will do the judgement for us all. Everything will just take time. And I believe that we believe and pray hard enough, we foresee a good and bright path along our way. A path that will lead us the right of way and having not to worry all the time.
STAY STRONG MY FRIENDS!!! Good things are awaiting for us....
Just do what you have to do and wait for the opportunity.
Hmmm...... next wish list....
1. A new pair of addidas running shoes
2. My new pair of international dance shoes
3. A new MP4 player which dear's cousin is helping to get
4. etc... etc... cant think of it now...
Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 5/30/2006 10:35:00 AM
Monday, May 29, 2006
Had always enjoyed talking to her as usual, for we do understand each other and know what is going on.
But this time she is somehow feeling rather upset. She is letting her mind cloud up with too much worries. But oh well.... I do not know how I could console her.
All I can do was to listen to her whin about how her boyfriend was still in contact with his ex-gf via sms. Hmmmmm..... the way he show his concern to her in a way or another. Even though its as a form of friendship, but knowing that he is still unable to let the past go. The sourness felt in her heart. A form of jealousy in her.
This makes me wonder how guys really understand how's the feeling like if the same sort of situation is happening to them instead. To them would it just means that its ok to open or would they too be feeling disheartened.
Have they ever thought of putting themselves into our shoes and having to think about our point of view???
No matter how strong a gal tries to protray herself, in the end, she would still be weak in the heart.
But what can I do, all I can do is just lend a listening ear. I have simply no comments but only have to tell her this...
'BE STRONG GAL!!'
What I think she needs is an assurance from her boyfriend. But how is that possible??
Let time be the judgement then.
SMILES....
For me, Im truely glad with what I have.
Hmmmm...... I can still feel the heatiness in my body... no matter how much water I drink....
Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 5/29/2006 09:29:00 PM
This is no good and I still have a list of payments to run and a stack of tax master invoices to update.
But its always good when my colleague and my boss is not around.... Own time own target as always.... I have not really started work only until like 3+pm.
I have been complaining so much bout my hectic work life and jus tolerating another 4 more tuition lessons and the kid will be passed over to my mum...
And that means... EVERY MONDAYS AND WEDNESDAYS Im free....
Woohoo.....
GYM time will be on the way....
Bangkok.....
Still comtemplating....
Bored!!!!!!!!!
Still running payments.... humpf....
Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 5/29/2006 05:17:00 PM
1st July - Medal Exam
2nd July - Competition
And his friend is going to watch him dance.... OMG... 'pls dun throw yr own face for nothing'....
No matter what Im still loving my latin dancing more each day. Hmmm... but disregard my current dance partner... lol.... unless its speaking of Theo... lol...
Today's dance practice has clearly stated his weakness in dance....
No tension
No leading
No sense of direction
Cant remember his routine still
I didnt say all these.... I am been very nice by shutting my trap... or else people would say I disrespect him.
All those are said by instructor. So... imagine... after 2 months its still so BAD!!!
When you are supposed to take only 2 lessons to complete a routine, he takes like 4 lessons to complete a routine and still not having to remember the routine yet without reminding....
But Im not going to say anything but SMILE.... for Im not pinning high hopes on the competition at all.
OH MY GOD!!! KILL ME..... He better not screw up the medal exam most importantly!
13th June, Tuesday....
Im on a full day leave...
Ngee Ann Poly graduation but not very looking forward to it for I will not know much people there except for those who retained that additional year with me.
Driving....
Trying to get over and be done with it asap.
Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 5/29/2006 12:09:00 AM
Saturday, May 27, 2006
Leg cramping....
Simply do not have the mood to work. Need to get away from Actor for a period of time. Some customers are simply getting on my nerves. I am the waitress behind the bar waiting for your orders and to serve you when the drinks are done.
Dun take me as a consultant all the time. Once or twice is good enough but not all the time. I just too tired to hear you sulk.
Arguements.... and more arguements....
Its been a long time since I seen a great fight happening over at Actors...
Some childish acts... Some kid just trying to think he is so great. Trying to get into a fight.
But we know how united people are over at Actors.
But oh well, show's over....
back to work again....
getting bored but at least was been entertained quite a bit.
Pay... pay... I need my pay from Actors.... it's been 3 months since I last got my pay.... lol...
Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 5/27/2006 02:08:00 AM
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
When a GIRL is quiet,
Millions of things are running in her mind.
When a GIRL is not arguing,
She is thinking deeply.
When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions,
She is wondering how long you will be around.
When a GIRL answers "i'm fine" after a few
seconds,
She is not at all fine.
When a GIRL stares at you,
She is wondering why you are lying.
When a GIRL lays on your chest,
She is wishing for you to be hers forever.
When a GIRL calls you everyday,
She is seeking for your attention.
When a GIRL wants to see you everyday,
She wants to be pampered.
When a GIRL sms's u everyday,
She wants you to reply at least once.
When a GIRL says I love you,
She means it.
When a GIRL says that she can't live without you,
She has made up her mind that you are her future.
When a GIRL says "i miss you",
No one in this world can miss you more than that
Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 5/23/2006 02:45:00 PM
Friday, May 19, 2006
Most of the days I would be working from mornings all the way till 9pm late at night. By the time I reach home I would drop flat on my bed. And then it will continue on and on with the same usual routine.
I need to breathe....
School's starting but I feel that Im simply left with half of my life.
With loads of things clouding my mind.
But who can I confine to?
1 month and 3 days passed....
Are you happy?
Still I reframe from using that word. Another word would have to replace it instead.
3'L's but which one would it be?
Not all things can be mentioned in entries. Not all times you can show your displease. She always says that I have a high tolerance level but how far can it go.
I see things which I do not wanna see... I hear things that I should not be even listening to. Some sentences said just make me feel sour and speechless.
Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 5/19/2006 05:00:00 PM
Thursday, May 18, 2006
Looks like me and Penny have to sort of drop the idea of going to Holland next year.
Debts are piling more and more each time once we graduate from Ngee Ann Poly. And with the amount of income we are getting, its really getting us to no where but monthly debts to pay up.
Penny had received a letter from the CPF stating to pay her Poly school fees... and its means that its extra burden and expenditure.
This means that I would be receiving that letter very soon as well. OMG!!!
But we still wish to get out of Singapore for sight-seeing and abit of good shopping... So I was suggesting either Taiwan or Hong Kong. I have friends who are at Hong Kong and who comes from Hong Kong... so I believe things should go on fine. But still... we'll think about it.
No matter, I would still be setting aside a sum of money to save each month. I trust myself that it can be done...
I need to open another bank account.
I need new shelving for all my files.
I need a new additional table.
I am intending to take up a language... either Korean or Spanish.. Just one and master that language well enough to put it in good use in the near future, hopefully 2 - 3 years later.
Ok... basically I typing this entry because I have nothing else better to do in the office... Im seriously bored... I do have work to complete but those can be completed within 2 hours. My 2 colleagues have gone for ISETAN private sales... hmmm... leaving me all alone here.
I m waiting for 530pm... and thats when I will leave the office on the dot and go for my driving lesson.
But the most awaiting part... is a call from my friend from Indonesia... Someone who I got to know when I was working as a Lounge Hostess at Orchard Hotel.
Will transiting over in Singapore for 6 hours... Hoping to get all the details of either the hotel or the flight details.
One lucky person who gets to go to the US to study... That proves only either one of the 2 things, just been so rich to study in the US or been sponsored with a contract bond.
Filled with Envy...
Ok... Im bored again... hai...
Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 5/18/2006 01:42:00 PM
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
Well, nothing much happened this few days other than I just got back from a Desaru trip last Sunday.. Nothing much there to do but its more of having a great bunch of company to be with. All the fun, joy and GREAT LOUD laughter....
But after having much fun... I started to feel feverish and finally I was down with a throat infection, backache and fever... Humpf....
But all well after a day.... still hopping and jumping around as usual... lol...
Half day MC on Monday, Half day leave on Tuesday.
Met up with Clara to apply for my course over at SIM RMIT (Bachelor of Accounting).... Chat up quite abit after not seeing each other for a super long time... talked about all the airlines and SIA... *tempted... tempted...*
(Those who knows me well enough will know why Im tempted.)
June intake is approaching... hmmm.... LOL
Hmmm.... Not very looking forward to Friday as I am so lazy to work at ACTORS... its like after working there for the past 1 year, it just gets so tiring, so frustrating...
Saturday... definitely not looking forward for I will need to face my stupid dance partner... same goes for Sunday unless if I am doing a solo private lesson.. Humpf...
Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 5/17/2006 09:28:00 AM
Monday, May 15, 2006
Beautiful
I don't know,
If I'm the one for you in this life?
I can't help,
Hearing my voice calling your name
Cos when I,
Trying so hard not to look into your eyes
Maybe I, had fallen in love with you.
Chorus
I can't so describe how I'm feeling deep inside
So much more than I can say with your touch feels so right
Oh my, you're so near all the times in this place,
For I know in my heart, I will never let you go.
In this life time,
Do you know why? Oh baby~
Cos you're just so beautiful to me
Well tonight,
Maybe the sun I can hear you breathe.
It's alive,
To see you smile with those tears in your eyes.
They may say that you're just a gal in this living world,
In my heart,
You're like a world to me
I can't so describe how I'm feeling deep inside
So much more than I can say with yr touch feel so right
Oh my you're so near all the times in this place.
For I know in my heart, I will never let you go.
In this life time
Do you know why? Oh baby~
Cos you're just so beautiful to me
Touch my hand,
Feel my heart,
Hold me close and you'll find me, you'll find me
You're so beautiful to me.
Composed by: Kel
Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 5/15/2006 03:21:00 PM
Thursday, May 11, 2006
Dinner at Tianying Thai Resturant. Food was good... but the entertainment after the dinner was better. A couple of drinks with my fellow colleagues from Fico, Datacon, Laurier and Meco... Got to understand more of the company... Best of all is I get to know more information on Holland, Italy, Rome and Florance. Had a couple of drinks FOC.. LOL... When I go KL, I know who to look for... KK Ho from Fico Moulding... keke... and looks like if I am to be there... definitely well taken care of.. keke..
Now I am starting to love Long Bar at Raffles Hotel... The band not only play the kind of music at Actors, they also plays loads of cha-cha music... woo... My legs were so itching to dance yesterday...
Penny, I was told that the secenery at Florance is fantastic.
Which season do you intend to go?? Winter or Spring?? Winter would be from Dec - Feb, Spring would be from Mar - May. Lol... Think about it... But I would love the winter season...
I could just email the colleague who fed me with the infomation if needed, and to understand even more. They were saying that Paris is a good place to go as well... Austria for skiing... but I doubt you would wanna ski.. lol..
Ok.. end of story... im sleepy... need to sleep.. gonna have a super long day tml.
Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 5/11/2006 12:50:00 AM
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
When would be the actual time? When will I know.... 3 months... 1 year... or only 3 years later. How long do I have to go wondering, having to think what is the situation like... Whats the point of saying all those to me... thats not what Im expecting. Like this I rather not know anything at all. If there isn't that thing at all, how would be known as a R. Then it seems to be only a one-sided thing. In this case, what's the point, this selfishness would only lead to sadness and start tearing away in silence. I will not speak anything of it and I will not show that Im impatient, all the most I can do is wait. Nothing else but waiting.... and more waiting... but for how long... when will I be able to get that answer up to my satisfaction. When will the past be taken over by the present? I do not like to share what I have, when some have to parted to the past as well. Then that thing is not mine to keep... not at all...
I think only Penny will understand my feelings, only if she can figure out what the heck Im saying... lol...
Was talking to my mother just now... then I told her that Mike was 29.... she practically went... 'HUH.... 29...haha' lol...
Penny, 2 things:
1. My mother seems very cool about the travel part. Was discussing with her and asking her opinions. Same as my friend, they both say that going to the agencies will be a better choice... and maybe we might consider taking tours. As a matter of fact, no matter wat, we are still gals and its still not very safe esp in a foreign country.. but we will look into it again when we have the time.
I was thinking of wat I emailed to you...
Destinations....
Singapore ---- Amsterdam ---- (Take domestic flight or train) Milan ---- (Take train) Rome ---- Flight back to Singapore.
But more or less, the will be rearrangments of destinations till then. We have 1 year to plan from now. Everything also depends on our budget as well...
2. Hmmm.... expect for the worse if Iran is going to have a drastic increase in price for oil. (quoted by my mum, not me [FYI] lol...) Expect to have more expensive tickets... so we have to plan really carefully. As according to my mother, things are also still not that cheap in Milan... that refers to LV or Prada.... as their factories are not in yr own hometown but other countries.
Dance... Partnership
(There's more to dance other than your steps... Your poise & attitude... Dance with the flow of rhythm)
Partnerships.... now I understand why partners always tend to quarrel...
1. High expectations on each other
2. When the partner simply cant remember the routine
3. When the partner simply do not have to flow in dance
Taking one example would be my current partner... *F* is the word used to describe last Sat and Sun. He simply really pissed me off. Giving me an attitude when I am actually talking to him nicely... He was the one telling me to guide him, if there's anything I think its not right... tell him... but now... when I tell him, he is simply not happy. WTH... then so be it... His words was simply filled with sacarism, pushing all the fault to me, trying to make me sound like Im totally wrong. WTH...
Saying that I did not show him respect in the very first place...
Oh pls.... this shows how little you know about dance world. Ppl always keep their options opened in terms of partnership. I even ask my friends, 'What's wrong with having to have an open options towards dance partners... this is the really dance world... you dun kick ppl, ppl will just kick you from behind.' Like what happened to me before.
Saying that he danced for 1 year, me and Theo also danced a year of Latin... that means we are on par... but Im so sorry to say... my current partner suck...
1. Cant remember the routine... like that go for medal exam and competition how... 'DIE LOR'... Have to remind him wat the next step is... Very bloody tiring one man... Tell him the steps already still give me that bloody blur look... which really make me wanna kill him
2. Simply have no flow in dance
3. Do not even know how to count the timings to the songs... this is the worst!!!
4. Cant even do a lead start.
5. Even if its only practice.. his steps are all so NUA...
6. No tension, can't and how to lead
7. No feelings put into the dance
All these... you bloody hell call dancing...
I dun even see the energy and effort... you call this improving.... *F off*
Still dare to show me attitude.... this shows you never die before!!!
HOW TO DANCE LIKE THAT... I SURE VOMIT BLOOD... I AM ALREADY ACTUALLY...
Dancing with Theo is still the best... No matter what, you can simply feel the lead, the feeling to the dance... you can practically feel the energy.
I miss dancing with Theo... he is still the best partner I ever had!!
Oh well... it been quite some time I last updated so here it is.
Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 5/10/2006 01:17:00 AM
Saturday, May 06, 2006
This year.... been officially 21 years of age, I had been called up for election. Nothing much but just to walk over to the voting area at JunYuan Primary school having just to mark a cross on who we are voting for...
A person like me who knows nuts about all these stuff.... all it took me was 5 mins and then to walk out of the voting area.... "Voting blinding"?? lol...
Was supposed to wake early after Mike giving me a morning wake up call, but I still fell back asleep again.... 'Hey... dun blame me... I worked till like 4am in the morning... wat do you expect...'
But Mike wake up call somehow did work for except when A called me to announce a shocking news... A news which actually made me jump out of bed...
The couples I saw the other time all seem fine and loving during the trip which I last went... But this shows how a guy can have a change in heart so suddenly. Affair with another gal outside?? When M had been 'locked up' by him not allowing her to communicate or meet up with anyone else... That's totally sick...
What happened to cause this drastic change. M must be really upset considering she has NO friends in Singapore. Where can she stay... she cant possibly put up at E's place any longer. That's simply just weird. It's simply a breakup of no reason. All we can do is to console her and A having to search for a place for her to rent.
Hai..... Im not saying that guys are the only ones who can have a drastic change of attitude. Gals as well... but why not tell the person the truth and let the person know what is going on especially when they are not at fault.
ARGH!!! SICK!!! Those out there.... make up your mind and not hurt a person out of no reason.
Yes you!!! You know who Im refering too as well.... So you jolly well clear up the mess and solve the problem rather than having to avoid calls and sms-es. Dun just because you have already got hold of the gal and just ditch her one side... then you are seriously a jerk after all.
Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 5/06/2006 11:58:00 AM
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
Life has still been pretty much the same....
Eat
Sleep
And no more extra activities... Everyday after work would either be more work or head back straight home.
Just that this time my mum is not in Singapore... Its been 2 days since she last left for Australia with her friend.
You wouldnt know the peace Im enjoying at home now... but just that sometimes there's no one for me to babble with... lol...
Ever since me and Penny started discussing bout an overseas trip, I have been calculating out my expenses.
Ever since I started working at Ubi Techpark, my transportation expenses decreased by half.. and thats a total good sign.
Monthly Expenses
Transportation -> $100
Food -> >$280 (7days, B/L/D)
Dance fees -> $100 (P) $60 (G) 2 mths
Hp Bill -> $50 max
Insurance -> $20 currently
Additional cost for next 2 mths
Dance shoes -> $180 ($90 each mth)
Computer Installment -> $600 ($300 each mth)
SIM RMIT Application fees -> $52.50
Wah.... so much expenses to pay, how am I going to survive on my current pay. I would really need to slog like hell... Which means I cant give up giving tuition yet.
If I am to really go overseas next year, I would have to save at least $300 a month... not only for the trip and also for personal savings.
Hmmmm.... I need an increase of salary.
But when would that be???
I need to see at least a certain amount of money in my bank account. And I would need to open a new bank account, personal untouchable savings and money for the trip next year. I would then need to withdraw out $500 out of my Progress Package to the untouchable account.
But I do not even have the time... OMG
By the time I finish work, the banks would all be closed... WTH...
Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 5/03/2006 09:48:00 PM
Im sorry guys... state me the actual dates and accomodations and the prices.. allow me to work out my budget and stuff. I cant promise much yet.
Always hearing from Penny been takan by her boss, come to think of it... I have loads of freedom... Own time own target... as long as I complete my work as told to do so. Other than that, there's no problems at all.. My manager do not bother bout me as Im under the Accountant's supervision.
No blockage for internet access... msn... where me and my colleagues will sometimes gossip about the HR lady we dislike. Ooops... here comes the politics... lol...
But I just listen.. keke...
Im always glad to be talking to Penny via email all the time to keep each other awake.. I think we know how it feels to be super bored and having nothing to do at office sometimes... but our conversations nv seem to end... haha.. all the cursing and swearing and planning of events...
Ok.. Tml I might have to be away from desk most of the time as I have to rush packing all the files into carton boxes and having to do the listings before the semi-con fair when all the big shots actually steps into the office... so the place has to be clean and neat.... OMG...
The most interesting event which me and Penny are really looking forward would be the planning of an overseas trip sometime next year. That would give us time to plan our stuff and save enough money starting from now. Either to Australia, Holland or Europe... but we would be more interested to go Holland.. but if the price is equivalent to the price of travelling to Europe, we might as well go further. We will see how it goes.. yeah Penny :).
Mike, wanna consider as well.. keke... join us...
Well, my parents have seen him and they know who Im out with all the time. To think of it, he is the 3rd official guy my parents have met. More to come.... :) Cheers
Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 5/03/2006 06:01:00 PM
