Thursday, August 31, 2006

Yesterday, though it was a down turn for me in the morning, it didnt take me that long to recover back to normal crazy mode.

Cried like hell in the morning once I stepped into office but my boss was kind enough to listen to the problems which I had. All I needed was someone to just listen me out.

Though it's something sad, but there and then good things do happen. I am finally confirmed as a permanent staff provided with all the medical & dental benefits, my annual leave and 30 days sick leave... The medical & dental will definitely help me to save quite abit on my expenses.

Thanks Agnes for all the care and concern. Just by one look on my MSN remark, she knows something was wrong and chatted me up. She was definitely another great person whom I pour my feelings out to as well... keke...
But will not make that happen all the time. keke

Outing with the Hornets group Nite out is definitely great... Especially when I see Annie. There will definitely be loads of laughter coming out from us. That sure helped cheer me up alot.

Thanks to Smokin who is working there, we all get to see a breath-taking view of Singapore from high up above over at the 73th level of Stamford Tower, though it might not be the highest building.... Totally spectacular!! Amazing!!
Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 8/31/2006 09:46:00 AM

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

I am starting to have my mental breakdown soon.....

It's just a matter of time....

SOON.....
REAL SOON.....

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 8/30/2006 09:44:00 AM

Monday, August 28, 2006

Till now, I would still say that I am seriously sick and tired of my life.
If you think that I am the type of person who is able to take negative remarks.
YOU ARE DAMN SO BLOODY HELL WRONG!!!!!!!!

You made it so bloody obvious that male descendants are more important than females then so be it. I dun give a damn!
For all these years throughout, since when I was young, you always think that I am a retarded kid who does not know what I am doing. Even till now, IM AM FARKING HELL 22 years old.... I jolly well know what the heck and doing and thinking. Of cos I will do things which are to my benefits... But everyone of you, all of you think that I am a retard! SO BE IT! I hate this family at times. But they can be nice at certain times. Hai... All the words from your mouth had never been nice from the start when I was young. Do I even hear a single word of praise.... NO!!!! All I get is vulgarities and always thinking that I am giving excuses. Whatever I say, to you it will always be lies so why should I even bother to tell you the truth or to answer your calls when I know what to expect at the end. Since when do you even trust me. If you think that coming to fetch me is a total hassle then fine... I can go home myself.

Like I always say... its damn bloody obvious that you treat your son and his people around him like SAINTS... and I am the DEVIL. Fine.... I couldn't care less.
Does your son even need to think about own expenditures when he is studying. NO!! But what about me. Everything I do and buy are all by myself and paying for my school fees as well!!!

I am not even driving the car, why should I even pay for the car insurance and tax and when you dun even bother to come and fetch me. Why can't your son pay all when he is earning more than I do. The answer I get from you is,"He no need to save ar!" So which means I need not save... then why bother finding out how much I have in my bank account when I have to pay so much things and I can't even get to save. Do you even know exactly what I am doing before you start opening your bloody mouth to curse and swear at me. NO... YOU DUN EVEN THINK... ALL YOU THINK IS THAT YOU ARE ALWAYS IN THE RIGHT AND WE ARE IN THE FARKING WRONG.

I have so much FARKING THINGS UP MY MIND and all I get is these type of crap from you, from this family. You think you know me.... but in actual fact, you know nuts about me for all these years. You only look at things on the surface and you start to state craps when you dun even see the real thing. I REPEAT!!! YOU DO NOT EVEN KNOW ME WELL ENOUGH!! So what makes you think that I will confine to you when I know I am going to expect negative comments all the time. NO ENCOURAGEMENTS AT ALL! All you think is that whatever I do is absolutely wrong. You despise me as always, you despise the people around me. If you think your son is so capable, then go seek for him.

If you think that I am a retard then why even have me in this world in the very first place. Kill me!! Throw me!!

I HATE MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!
Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 8/28/2006 11:13:00 PM

Friday, August 25, 2006

All people are over at Sarawak, Malaysia enjoying themselves I supposed! Well, at least they do not have to return to office and work.

But what the heck am I doing in the office since yesterday. Dread coming to office when I know that I will be all alone and there will be no one to entertain me.

Their flight was at 1:30pm yesterday. Thankfully I did appear in the office when my stupid boss actually appeared suddenly to get some stuff.
Completed all my stuff in the morning for I just needed to stuff all the documents into several envelopes and sent them out by DHL courier. And that's it!!! I am done with my office work, for the rest can wait till when my colleagues are back.

So I happily took out my laptop and all my maths TMA assignment and Management textbook and started doing my assignment with the blasting on of the music on my laptop.
OK.. I WAS CAUGHT RED-HANDED. But my boss did speak a word about it. What can she do to me. Well, like I tell my mother, if it's neccessary she can happily find someone else to replace my position. Then my colleague will happily leave with me for she is sick and tired of this company and she would not even bother to train another new comer when I already know everything.
But what the heck....

Today, I took the luxury to take my own sweet time to walk to office, opening up the door at my own slow pace... having to enter the office, only then did I realise that I did not switch off the air-con yesterday. But who cares....
Took my time to settle down in my seat, checking all my stuff and doing some office neccessary stuff first... then did I have my breakfast.
For the whole day I could not be bothered to step out of the office.
Just one word to describe me, 'LAZY'. Just the same way when I am alone at home. I just find whatever food I can find and eat them if not I would just starve myself.

Ever heard of someone working on TWO computers and ONE laptop... yup thats me. I took the advantage and pluck out the wire for internet connection from my colleague's desktop and pluck it into mine. So for the whole day I have been working on my laptop. Woohoo...Leaving the other 2 on, one more check emails, the other waiting for the pathetic Austrain IT person to set up my accounting software and my Lotus Notes.
But it can be quite mind draining to be aware that I am alone by myself as my imagination can really run really well sometimes. I am quite afraid when I am alone. ALL ALONE!!! Just one incoming fax is enough to make your hair stand especially when you just stepped into office and when all the lights are switched off with no one around you. It happened once when I was all alone having to do OT over at CNBC.

But I decided not to let my imagination run too wild. As usual, did my own sandwich for lunch, blasted music and I am still doing my Maths assignment. STILL DOING.... HAI...

Ok... shall get back to my work.
Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 8/25/2006 03:14:00 PM

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

In a blink of an eye, each day simply just passes by so fast.... very very fast....

Many things happened, be it pleasant or unpleasant and I have got no time to update my blog. I feel like deserting my blog as it can be quite a hassle to keep it up to date.

Been on 2 touring trips and Im getting used to the speed.
But for now, it's a stop to touring for the time been. My poor darling had been suffering in pain for days. Having to see him in pain personally really makes me heartbroken but thankfully he is recuperating fast.
Things btw us are going on strong and fine. More sweetness than I have ever tasted before. Attending to his needs when he is unwell, distance is not a factor of problem just to get what he wants and wish to have.

School at UniSIM had started for the past 3 weeks and the school work load are still going on fine but I would have to start on my TMA01 without further delay. I would have to do up my Maths problems and write 3 memos for my Management & Organization module. And I'm hoping that for upcoming Maths Lecture, the lecturer would simply speak up and write clearly. I would also have to get used to travel all the way home from school and AT NIGHT... takes me like 1 and a half hours to reach home. *Faintz* It's back to the Poly days for I had travel those distances for the past 3.5 years.

At the mean time, I'm trying to cope with whatever expenses which comes along.
Debts for my laptop have been paid completely to my dad.
Just got myself to go all the way to Ngee Ann Poly to collect my replacement CCA certificate and to check my eyesight.
Damn.... having to face the old monitor screen non-stop had caused my eyesight to increase... This is not good at all.

Next, Im looking forward to be all alone in office on the 24 & 25 of August when everyone in the office are over at Sarawak having their team building program which Im seriously not interested in.

I need a good long break of holidays....
PLAN
PLAN
PLAN.... Hmmmmm....
Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 8/16/2006 01:52:00 PM