Thursday, November 03, 2005

I can talk. I can socialize. I can talk to someone I know for the first time. I can talk to my friend's friends. But I simply cant socialize with my boyfriend's friends much.


There's practically communication break down.(Maybe... *shrugs*) Looks like the only person I can talk to is Xian Zhen.


Well, I dun know.


As for another case.....
I really dun know how to type it down. Probably Im just thinking too much. But everything just scare me more than enough to pull down my self-esteem.
What's gonna happen I would not know. Words and actions seems to be totally different. What assurance do I get?


I have a friend whom I know from salsa. He was at Zouk yesterday and was chatting with him on msn just now. This is a part of the conversation.


- John : Hey... I got to know this korean babe yesterday.
- Me : Hey you got a gf right?
(Before I can compete my sentence saying that I saw them quite a few times. But he replied me this.)
- John : Get to know new friends only ma.


What can I say..... What can I think about. Would he even place himself in his gf's shoes and think how would she feel. But maybe she would not even mind at all.


Hmmm..... cant be bothered to think of it now.
All its needs is to just have friends which would be more than enough. What am I, taken into consideration? Nah... I doubt so.


Yesterday and today would be a good example.


I seriously dun give a hoot for now!


It happens to me before. I think it can happen again.


I will check my entry again... not necessary now. I may type wrongly cos I type faster and my brain is wols.... So whatever...
Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 11/03/2005 11:23:00 PM