Sunday, October 23, 2005
Temptations??
Sourcing for better things??
Who doesn't...
Trust??
Disappointed..
I really do not know. Even though the whole situation is just a very very minor one.
But who can assure that it would not happen the next time again and maybe even more.
Whose that gal, I think I would not really want to care much. All I know its definitely someone better looking.
It happened to me many times and its happening again. It hurts me again when I am typing this.
Im sorry to say... but it really makes me wonder how much am I meant to you. Whats my status? What am I to you... Forgiving is just a case which can be easily done so by me. But looks like its gonna stay in me for a certain period of time.
It cuts me hard and deep now.
Clubbing... its not much of matter. Its ok for me.... but all I said right from the start, is never to betray. I just do not wish to be that sort of person who disapproves boyfriends from going clubbing and restricting their lifes. Ain't Im fair enough. He's clubbing while Im working....
But is it really ok for me.... I seriously have to think over it again. Heart pounding session. But why should I even be bothered. No, I should not.
When I can hardly see you, I suddenly receive a msg stating that you are going to sentosa even if you didnt... But before sending the msg, did you even consider about my feelings.
Tears streaming down my face again. I dun know why. I just cant help it. I love you so much which really makes me so hurt. Over and over again.
I would not quarrel. I would not really say anything. But you can see it all in my entry here. Whats the point.... I should just keep it all to myself and finally explode one fine day.
I do not know, but I feel that this relationship has not really been acknowledged. I think so, and I dun know why.
But I love you so much, that I would not wish to let go...... I love you baby.... and I thank you for telling me the truth.
Sick and tired...
Sleepy...
Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 10/23/2005 07:03:00 AM
