Monday, August 28, 2006
If you think that I am the type of person who is able to take negative remarks.
YOU ARE DAMN SO BLOODY HELL WRONG!!!!!!!!
You made it so bloody obvious that male descendants are more important than females then so be it. I dun give a damn!
For all these years throughout, since when I was young, you always think that I am a retarded kid who does not know what I am doing. Even till now, IM AM FARKING HELL 22 years old.... I jolly well know what the heck and doing and thinking. Of cos I will do things which are to my benefits... But everyone of you, all of you think that I am a retard! SO BE IT! I hate this family at times. But they can be nice at certain times. Hai... All the words from your mouth had never been nice from the start when I was young. Do I even hear a single word of praise.... NO!!!! All I get is vulgarities and always thinking that I am giving excuses. Whatever I say, to you it will always be lies so why should I even bother to tell you the truth or to answer your calls when I know what to expect at the end. Since when do you even trust me. If you think that coming to fetch me is a total hassle then fine... I can go home myself.
Like I always say... its damn bloody obvious that you treat your son and his people around him like SAINTS... and I am the DEVIL. Fine.... I couldn't care less.
Does your son even need to think about own expenditures when he is studying. NO!! But what about me. Everything I do and buy are all by myself and paying for my school fees as well!!!
I am not even driving the car, why should I even pay for the car insurance and tax and when you dun even bother to come and fetch me. Why can't your son pay all when he is earning more than I do. The answer I get from you is,"He no need to save ar!" So which means I need not save... then why bother finding out how much I have in my bank account when I have to pay so much things and I can't even get to save. Do you even know exactly what I am doing before you start opening your bloody mouth to curse and swear at me. NO... YOU DUN EVEN THINK... ALL YOU THINK IS THAT YOU ARE ALWAYS IN THE RIGHT AND WE ARE IN THE FARKING WRONG.
I have so much FARKING THINGS UP MY MIND and all I get is these type of crap from you, from this family. You think you know me.... but in actual fact, you know nuts about me for all these years. You only look at things on the surface and you start to state craps when you dun even see the real thing. I REPEAT!!! YOU DO NOT EVEN KNOW ME WELL ENOUGH!! So what makes you think that I will confine to you when I know I am going to expect negative comments all the time. NO ENCOURAGEMENTS AT ALL! All you think is that whatever I do is absolutely wrong. You despise me as always, you despise the people around me. If you think your son is so capable, then go seek for him.
If you think that I am a retard then why even have me in this world in the very first place. Kill me!! Throw me!!
I HATE MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!
Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 8/28/2006 11:13:00 PM
