Thursday, February 16, 2006

IM FREAKING HELL STRUGGLING WITH MY FINANCIALS ALREADY, AND THERE, WHAT DO I GET, A BUNCH OF COLD WORDS FROM MY MUM. NEVER WILL I RECEIVE WORDS OF ENCOURAGEENTS FROM ANYONE!


I FREAKING HELL DUN EARN ALOT OF MONEY. $1.2K A MONTH IS NOT ENOUGH... I REPEAT!!!! NOT ENOUGH!!!! THE WORDS I GET FROM HER IS.... 'AFTER WORKING FOR SO MANY MONTHS, I DUN EVEN SEE THAT YOU HAVE SAVINGS! YOU ARE ALSO NOT EVEN GIVING ME MONEY!'
WTH!! HOW M I SUPPOSE TO BE ABLE TO SAVE WHEN I HAVE SO MUCH THINGS TO PAY FOR. I M ALREADY TRYING MY BEST IN WHATEVER I DO. WHAT MORE DO YOU EXPECT FROM ME. IM NOT A SAINT WHO CAN CREATE MIRACLES. AND WHETHER M I ABLE TO CONTINUE WITH A JOB AT CNBC IS STILL UNKNOWN.


$400 EVERY MONTH FOR THE NEXT 4 MONTHS TO MY DAD, TO PAY OFF MY DEBT OF THE LAPTOP WHICH I GOT.


ANOTHER $250 CLOSE TO $300 FOR TRANSPORATION


ANOTHER $$200 TO $300 ON MY DAILY MEALS AND ESSENTIAL NEEDS.


IM PAYING FOR MY OWN DANCE CLASSES, OWN DANCE SHOES, OWN STUFF.... HELLO!!!!
ALL THESE IN TOTAL IS ALREADY CLOSE TO $1K.


BY THEN, IM LEFT WITH NOTHING... HOW THE HELL M I SUPPOSE TO SAVE.


BUT IN THE END.... I RECEIVE BAD REMARKS FROM HER AND BEEN ACCUSED ALL THE TIME...


I F**KING HELL SAY THIS IS NOT THE FIRST TIME...


I SERIOUSLY HATE HER ATTITUDE. JUMPING TO CONCLUSIONS ALL THE TIME AND THE BEST PART IS, SHE ALWAYS THINKS SHE IS IN THE RIGHT AND IM ALWAYS IN THE WRONG...


IM BLOODY HELL 21 YEARS OLD, I BLOODY HELL KNOW HOW TO THINK AND WHAT I WANT IN MY LIFE.


SSSSSTTTTTTOOOOOOOPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!


LEAVE ME ALONE....


I WANNA GET OUT OF THIS HOUSE!!!!!
Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 2/16/2006 12:42:00 AM