Monday, October 31, 2005
My life is not having so much time to waste on all these things.
If its meant to expect the way it's supposed to be in the end. Then I shall just let it be.
Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 10/31/2005 08:59:00 AM
Sunday, October 30, 2005
This whole week is nothing much but quite much of boredom. Except for some extra activities with my pals.
Went Union Sq yesterday. The crowd was not as good as the other time. The waiter seriously have attitude problem.
Hai.... cant be bothered. I would rather just continue dancing then bother with such people.
Hai... Im finally feeling so much better after the recovery of all the puking I had on Friday.
Tml is brand new day.... hai... back to work again....
Hai....
Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 10/30/2005 05:47:00 PM
Saturday, October 29, 2005
What's so good about me? What do people actually see in me individually? What do they think about me?
Its like all of a sudden, alot of ppl are coming up to me and saying that they like me... Hmmmm......
Some are my boss at actors bar's customers. Not 1 but 4.... hmmm....
Then there's another one more is my colleague from Carl's Jr... Hmmm....
What do they like about me?
Huh.... Seriously... I dun know what to do... but oh well... all I need to just do is work and get my money. Lol.....
Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 10/29/2005 05:39:00 PM
Friday, October 28, 2005
Who says I cant cook. Hmmm..... 'I CAN'... lol... Didnt managed to contribute much but at least everyone says they liked my 'xiao bai cai' with oyster sauce. Lalalala...
Having some quiet time outside the corridor with Daryl, talking but everything and anything was totally good. I love the quietness but not too quiet...
''Well, I hope PW and DC would be fine now. Im so worried for them yesterday.
PW, take care of yrself... dun exert yrself too much. I dun wish to lose a friend like you. Take good care of yr health and stay strong. PW and DC... always smile... enjoy the dance... not stressing over it. What I believe is that, only with the enjoying you have, would then come with achievement and fulfillment.''
Normally, by 1030+pm I would knock out on the bed. Im so not used to sleeping late now... 'sort of'. But its a chalet.... well, Im still lousy. By 1am, I decided to sleep. But the chalet is hmmmm... I find it sort of too big and 'scary'. But its the biggest chalet I ever been to. Its a bungalow... it is very good when the area of the kitchen is too big. Bedrooms are big... and its directly facing the sea.
Due to the fact that I find it scary. I decided to change my mind and not go to the chalet yesterday. Partly its because I was tempted to go other place.
Thursday... and Tuesday are the days that I normally do not have the chance to have my dinner as I would rush straight to school for dance.
So good gracious me.... I drank without eating much. Wala Wala... is only good when there are seats.
My dear friend actually ordered like 2 jugs of vodka mixture before 9pm, so that makes it 4 jugs in total.
Saw Norman and his friends ('Hansel','Xiang Jun','Juliet','Pamela'.. whatever and however their names is spelt as)... But anyway, whatever.....
By 11+pm... Norman and gang left to play mahjong... 'faintz'.
Playing numbering games was totally a bad idea of mine. I drank like so fast... Even though the vodka given was weak, everything started to accumulate and very soon I was like.... 'God lord, Im freaking high...'
Puked like hell.... Puked gastric juice this morning again before leaving house for work. Stomach feeling bad, head is giddy...
All my colleagues forced me to go back and rest.. so here I m now... typing and updating this blog of my recent events. And Im seriously gonna have to sleep or I cant work tonight.
Tata... sweet dreams....
Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 10/28/2005 12:04:00 PM
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
Its a boring job and its still is...
Still trying to get use to it. Its ok only when you know what the heck you are doing and you can get your work done all right.
But hmmm... will update bout that again then.
Now my right thigh is pain... overstretched during dance last night. My god...
With the pain and my freaky 'HIGH' heels... lol.. its sort of killing me... And I have to travel all the way down to the chalet. And Im carrying so much stuff with me.
hmmmm......
Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 10/26/2005 04:48:00 PM
Sunday, October 23, 2005
Temptations??
Sourcing for better things??
Who doesn't...
Trust??
Disappointed..
I really do not know. Even though the whole situation is just a very very minor one.
But who can assure that it would not happen the next time again and maybe even more.
Whose that gal, I think I would not really want to care much. All I know its definitely someone better looking.
It happened to me many times and its happening again. It hurts me again when I am typing this.
Im sorry to say... but it really makes me wonder how much am I meant to you. Whats my status? What am I to you... Forgiving is just a case which can be easily done so by me. But looks like its gonna stay in me for a certain period of time.
It cuts me hard and deep now.
Clubbing... its not much of matter. Its ok for me.... but all I said right from the start, is never to betray. I just do not wish to be that sort of person who disapproves boyfriends from going clubbing and restricting their lifes. Ain't Im fair enough. He's clubbing while Im working....
But is it really ok for me.... I seriously have to think over it again. Heart pounding session. But why should I even be bothered. No, I should not.
When I can hardly see you, I suddenly receive a msg stating that you are going to sentosa even if you didnt... But before sending the msg, did you even consider about my feelings.
Tears streaming down my face again. I dun know why. I just cant help it. I love you so much which really makes me so hurt. Over and over again.
I would not quarrel. I would not really say anything. But you can see it all in my entry here. Whats the point.... I should just keep it all to myself and finally explode one fine day.
I do not know, but I feel that this relationship has not really been acknowledged. I think so, and I dun know why.
But I love you so much, that I would not wish to let go...... I love you baby.... and I thank you for telling me the truth.
Sick and tired...
Sleepy...
Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 10/23/2005 07:03:00 AM
Friday, October 21, 2005
Very soon, Im gonna get my new samsung E730...
Woohoo.... im so excited...
Spiff... dun worry... i will transfer you the money very soon as soon as I have deposited money into my account...
Yay!!!!! cant wait......
Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 10/21/2005 02:37:00 PM
Thursday, October 20, 2005
Im practically filled with information. Its like 1121pm and Im supposed to be asleep now.. but what the heck... Im still typing this entry... *faintz*
I think from tml and next week onwards, I would be so so so stress....
STRESS!!!
Hmmm.... come to think of it, I realised that its like I have shifted most of my stuff to the office. Its seems that it has became my second home. MY GOD!!! HELP ME!!
The office is so pathetic that we even have to buy our own tissue boxes.
Can't they be kind enough to sponsor us cheap stuff.
Next thing Im shifting over is my cup.... A PROPER CUP...
Ok... back to something about dance.
Formation is not that bad after all. The dance routine is good I would say... learning something new again. Hmmm.... I excited of the dance costumes we are gonna have. And we are gonna perform at NGEE ANN CITY... In front of all the unknown people.
Its like 2pm in the afternoon.... 2PM!!! ARGH!!! AFTERNOON... HOT HOT HOT... our make-up is like competition make-up and its sure to melt.
Ar... heck... cant be bothered for now as I wanna sleep... lol....
Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 10/20/2005 11:13:00 PM
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
Yesterday was simply a very slacking day. Did nothing much but reading notes and doing a bit of work and revision of what I have learnt on Monday... Super relax..
Now, I am hoping that Irene who come in today. Hmmmm....
Every since I started work in CNBC, I will sleep by 1030+pm. Wooo... early... surprise.
Ok... back to rotting time.
Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 10/19/2005 08:48:00 AM
Sunday, October 09, 2005
Im a person who regardless of where there is or not, I would be filled with imaginations. My imaginations would simply just run wild and think of rubbish.
Even when now when I am typing this entry, I can feel myself trembling abit. I just feel very 'naked' when no one is beside me. Then I would start to have imaginations.
At the very beginning, at the Bukit Timah Reserve, I could feel the chills in me. Tears have actually started to accumulate in my eyes. But I just tolerate.
But finally it comes to a point when we all finally gathered in front of the gate of the 'Haunted Mansion'. The darkness simply just started to send chills down my spine. I dare not even look. But I have no idea why, my eyes just would not listen, I just kept on looking.
With all the stories and for those who actually plan to go in, I started to get worried.
Since young, I have always tot that its better to play safe than be sorry. And I would agree with WeiJie that its not right to disturb the ..... . Now, the image simply would not leave. Each time I close my eyes, the image would simply just appear, following with all my wild imagination.
Imaginations just starts to build when I am still typing this. Im scared. Yes I am.
Finally, I could not take it anymore. I broke down and cried. Its like as though, I saw something.
Ok I think I should seriously stop before I start scaring myself again.
Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 10/09/2005 10:37:00 PM
Saturday, October 08, 2005
Well both of each. Had 2 interviews today and I was almost late for both so I had to take a cab. Spent like close to $30 on taxi fare. hmmmm......
First interview at Bugis.... damn... its sure quite a distance away from the MRT station if I were to walk there. Bloody hell... took a taxi there and the interview was like less than 10 mins.
Second interview.... not too bad. CNBC Business News Media station. Had a good chat with the person-in-charged who interviewed me and have a better understanding of what to do. Oh man... am I lucky or what... I managed at get the job as an Accounts Assistance dealing with G/L and payments. I believe I am able to handle them... 'HOPEFULLY'.
I thought I would not be able to get hold of the job for I am still a super green horn.. Lol... but I after they understand me much more, they wanna give me that chance...
WooHoo!!!!!
Yeah!!! Tml I am free from work...!!!
Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 10/08/2005 02:42:00 AM
Friday, October 07, 2005
I have finally officially graduated from NGEE ANN POLYTECHNIC!!!
Though results are sucky as usual, but who gives a hoot when I can finally graduate.
Baby is still in camp so I can only msg and call him to cry for joy. Next would be my fav 'brother', CL and darling Sulie. She knows how much I slogged and dying to graduate.
Celebration??
WOo Hoo!!! Union Sq!!!
Its been really a long time since I danced so crazily. Non-stop dancing for 2-3hrs, with different people. My god!!!
My feet now hurts like hell....
I bet I am gonna have major leg cramps and would definitely be walking like a crippled. Lol.....
But well, I had a great time totally!!
I wonder when would be the next time for me to go down Union Sq again. Hmmmm......
Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 10/07/2005 12:38:00 AM
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
ARGH!!!!
HELP!!!!
IN ANOTHER 12HRS TIME, THE EXAM RESULTS WILL BE RELEASED!!!
I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE!!! PLS LET ME PASS!!!
HOLY HELL!!!
Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 10/05/2005 08:57:00 PM
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
Today is the 4th of Oct... In 2 days time, I AM GONNA RECEIVE MY EXAM RESULTS!!!!!
ARgH!!!
SCREAMS!!!
I am scared... very scared...
Oh Lord... pls... pls... pls... I beg and pray for forgiveness and pls pls pls let me complete my course.
Or else... to all my dear friends... I am happy to know all of you... Thank alot. Don't be surprised if you do see me on the Headlines or the Obituaries section... ARhmm.... Touchwood!!!
Ok... Im lazy to blog already....
I need my beauty sleep... I need to WORK TML!!! Argh!!!
Damn it... damn it...!!!
Salsaera Paradiz signing off lovingly 10/04/2005 12:19:00 AM
